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The Day after tomorrow is the first day of the rest of your life. That way you’ve always got a couple of days in hand.

Bill Bailey

Blimey, time’s flown. I’m now less than twelve hours away from getting in a taxi bound for Heathrow. I’m less than twent-four hours away from boarding a plane. In fact by this time tomorrow I imagine I’ll be either over the ocean somewhere or just passing the east coast.

I have remained entirely honest on this blog, and I see no reason to stop now - I’m terrified. I don’t know what’s going to happen when I get to the US. I have no idea what path my life will take. I don’t know if I will be a success with whatever I do, I don’t know if I’m even going to stick it out with whatever I start doing. My life, these past seven or eight months, has been building up to leaving the UK. Past that I haven’t the foggiest idea what I’m doing. I have never been more scared in my entire life.

I love it.

I love not knowing what’s going to happen. I love the fact that I’m doing this purely because I can. Life is far too short, and you only get the one. So live it. I don’t want to be one of those people who just talks about doing things and never does them. And I don’t want to be one of those people who fusses and whines and moans about how horrible their life is without actively doing something about it. That’s nonsense logic - that’s Amy Logic - and it doesn’t hold up to scrutiny. Because at the end of the day, you can have all the television and burgers and cats and DVDs and chips and games consoles and exams and Pepsi and candles you want, but if you haven’t done anything, haven’t tried expanding your horizons, doing new things, seeing new places, meeting new people, then what the Hell is the point of it all?

I like life, and contrary to the belief of many I actually have one. I know, that surprised me as well. And I intend to fill my life with as much wonder and excitement as possible. Not to say I’m going to dodge the little stuff. The big stuff can’t happen without the little stuff chugging along behind it. But life isn’t all about the little stuff. It’s so much bigger than that.