I’m going to start off this entry by addressing something that pissed me off when I discovered it. Every time I’ve gone to write about it it’s left me red in the face and just… angry. Here’s an excerpt from DeViney’s follow-up to my Microsoft article on GP (bold emphasis mine):
Then the whip came down: it became clear that in order for me to proceed in my efforts to finally capitalize on being one of Microsoft’s biggest supporters in the video game industry for over five years, Ben Paddon was going to have to hit the road. I was advised by a friend at Microsoft to “remove any potential sources of contention” and that would allow me to resume my efforts to bring about a Microsoft sponsorship of GamePartisan.
That sentence left me feeling really, really pissed off. I had been told by DeViney, and by another GP writer, that Microsoft had pretty much demanded it or else no dice. Instead it appears DeViney was “advised by a friend,” which is something entirely different. I’m not happy. I feel like I’ve been manipulated by DeViney, used by him to further his agenda with GP.
He called me on Tuesday to let me know he was stepping down as Editor in Chief for 90 days and offered me the position. At the time I accepted because when he called I was on my way home from work having been sick, but the more I think about it the more utterly repugnant an idea it sounds.
It’s a two-sided coin. On one hand, it gives me the opportunity to do something really good with GP. I feel that GP’s weaknesses are its lack of internal structure (meetings are called that never happen) and the fact that a lot of the news posts are just directly copied and pasted from Press Releases. That’s just lazy, in my opinion. These days I find myself more and more turning to Kotaku for my gaming news, and I really like the editorial manner they relay gaming news. I’d be inclined to lean towards reporting news in that manner, but with perhaps a bit more of an Amiga Power style humour slant to it. At the same time though, the idea of deepening my involvement in the site leaves me feeling cold. Following this revelation, I really don’t have any strong feelings one way or the other about the continued existence of GP, or my involvement in it.
The issue that started the entire Microsoft problem - my immigration - is being handled by Larry Hryb, better known to the gaming public as Major Nelson. We’ve been emailing each other back and forth this week and he’s assured me that he will at least try to resolve the problem within the next few days. Fingers crossed it gets sorted.
With that out of the way, how do I feel about life in general? Well, no sodding clue. Mostly, right now, I feel il. But you don’t want to hear about that. I’ve been paid today, so I have a very strong urge to buy something nice for myself. A family friend, Patrick, once suggested that I might have a shopping addiction and I’m starting to think he might be right. I’ve been going up and down my Amazon Wishlists thinking to myself, “Yeah, I’d quite like to buy that.” I’ve been looking through Steam to see if there are any games I particularly want. I’ve been looking at inexpensive laptops for writing on. I’ve been… well, I’ve been window shopping so far.
I think I’m going to try and chill out this evening, maybe throw a DVD on and go to bed a little earlier. I really feel out of sorts…
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